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Trapped

9 comments | January 14th, 2012

(submitted anonymously by a Chestist.  oringinally in May, again today)

To start with, let's get this out of the way. I am a college age girl (I do consider myself a girl because, let's face it, I am far from a woman when I spend my favourite Thursday nights colouring with my friends) with ADD and Anxiety Disorder NOS. I feel so incredibly trapped by these conditions. I want to scream every time I want to focus, but can't, or can't tear myself away from something distracting. I want to, and frequently do cry when something that I see my friends brush off makes me so uncertain of my own ability to get through. Anything unknown in my life sends fear and panic right through me. There are so many negative things bubbling up in me, threatening to burst. Am I alone in this? I feel it so often, I'm more surprised when it's gone than when the fear is there. And yet, it feels a bit better to talk about, even though that talking hurts.  {end story}

Our anonymous reader asks if she's alone.  Is she?  Anyone out there who can relate?

9 comments

  • Anonymous

    Posted on May 2, 2011

    You are NOT alone. I promise.

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  • C2

    Posted on May 2, 2011

    Discomfort and anxiety become our norm. They’re what we know, and it can be so unsettling when we have moments of clarity; that even though clarity is what we’re craving it feels wrong because it feels so different to us.

    Can i ask, are you on meds? They’ve helped my sister a lot. And like the other commenter said “you are not alone.”

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  • Mir

    Posted on May 2, 2011

    You are most definitely not alone! Keep talking—it’s how you find help and learn more coping tools, and it’s also how you discover others in the same boat. The truth is that everyone struggles with anxiety, some of us just have more of it and/or a harder time tamping it down. It gets easier to control the more support you have, though.

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  • Jade

    Posted on May 2, 2011

    I agree with the commenter above. The more you share, the more you open up to others sharing their experiences back with you.

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  • Sara M.

    Posted on May 3, 2011

    I used to be a really open, extroverted person, but in the last year or so I’ve found myself experiencing similar anxiety when faced with social situations or being around anyone I don’t trust extremely deeply. My friends have grown tired of my using this as an excuse for not going out with them, and it feels like they think I’m “faking” it or something. I don’t really have any advice, but my god, you’re certainly not alone!

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  • Anonymous

    Posted on January 14, 2012

    I have ADD and anxiety issues, too. For me, I let my friends and teachers know I have it so that I can go to them for help when I need to. Because my friends know this, they just laugh when I point out a squirrel or a plane rather than blushing or being embarrassed.

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  • Ms. Gotcha

    Posted on January 15, 2012

    No, no, you are very much not alone. I have been through this. There are times I still go through it. For people like us who live at extremes it can be harder. Remember though that most people swing along their own continuum, and all people get scared of something. Talk, whisper, yell, cry, paint, but the more you get it out the more of it that will be out and not in.

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